It ain't easy being 'leen.

I work with a couple of girls at Sweet Valley Middle School. Great girls the both of them. But I was in a meeting with them one day and they started talking about how having dishes in the sink would drive them nuts. I couldn't comprehend how something as small as dishes in the sink would drive them to distraction, I think I know now.

I'm not talking about dishes in the sink. I've walked over a piece of paper on my floor for a week without picking it up. I mean I thought about picking it up, but for some reason never got around to it. I'm talking about how something could drive you to distraction, no matter how small. For me, I guess it's conversation.

Those of you who know me may think that in saying funny things (or at least trying to) is fun for me and I must have a great time going around the building coming up with funny things to say. Actually, it drives me insane a lot of the time. Either my brain never shuts off trying to come up with something new to say or it just happens without me realizing it. You should know I don't consider 90% of what I say to be that funny at all. I'm glad if you enjoy it, but I don't feel I'm working at it so it doesn't feel that it's worthy of being funny.

Throughout my life I've wanted to be, I wouldn't use the word "normal", but just like most people. These are people who can have normal conversations, sometimes they're funny but for the most part just have interesting conversations with people and then walk away having enjoyed the conversation.

The other part of the conversation thing about me that really bugs me is that I seem to come up with either ideas that no one has thought of or explain an idea in a way that no one else has thought of. I hate it, I wish I could turn my brain off and just go along and not consider other things like most people do, I sometimes wonder if I'm brilliant, or just really annoying. As you can see it ain't easy being 'leen. (Kathleen, get it, see there I go again. Do you have any idea how many ideas I got rid of before coming up with this one. GRRRRRRR)

So, my dish worrying friends, I'll teach you to ignore the dishes in the sink and you show me how to converse like a regular person. That's what I learned today.